Did I Miss Out?

Over the course of my adolescence, I've had crushes on many guys. Some were painful emotions which lasted for years, and some were moment-long butterflies.

I caught a glance of one of the guys I recently liked at youth group. The butterfly feelings were unmistakable - and strong. I hadn't felt them in a long time. I looked away. And I felt guilty for my fleeting look, however innocent, because I knew a friend of mine was interested in this guy.

And when my mind wandered to her feelings for this guy, my guilt turned to disappointment. All my middle school daydreams of meeting the perfect guy in high school, walking to and from classes with him, being escorted to senior prom by him... Gone.

The question I'm asking is - Did I miss out on something in High School because I didn't date? Am I missing what "everyone else" had?

I'll let you know ten years from now when I'm a happy wife and a mother!